My grandfather was in love with Germans. Mind you he was a Russian-born (like myself) who fought against the Nazi's durring ZE VAR.

But he was also a dissident with a PhD in Engineering, whose parents were shot by the Russian revolutionaries when he was 15. Yeah, take THAT karma!

He always said: "The Germans do it right the first time." I don't know if that's true anymore, but I have learned to respect their craftsmanship.

This was a man who never really got along with bosses or any "authority" types, much like his beloved grand daughter, nor did he have much respect for anyone in particular. Only the most intelligent and sensible beings.

I'm not saying its the way to live a life, I don't even know how I went down the road of writing this blog, but feels like the past few posts I've written have been very direct, like arrows, and this one, well, it might be more emotional even where its dealing with life's ebbs.

Mediocrity sucks. It has sucked for me, and I have looked it in the face only to say "Kat, get off your a$$, and get going."

I think it will be soon time for me to take a new leap, to new heights, to new levels in career as well as my awareness. I already feel very different, and my world is reflecting it.

In the new year, I am learning patience and more more more patience, and I intend to learn something from each of you even if its how to boil eggs...

Namaste,
Katya

A cute picuture:

And so I blogged.
About competition...

A friend sent me a link to a book that I have been reading by Wallace D. Wattles (left) called "The Science of Getting Rich". It is an odd title for this book (written 100 years ago), because he really describes the Law of Attraction. How to CREATE your life. Its not all about money.

[ Notice the embarrasment I experience as soon as its about moolah! So undeserving! ]

Anyhow, one of the tenets is that becoming wealthy does NOT mean your wealth has to be at the expense of another. That once you experience feelings of competition you are dropping back down into the old line of thinking.

You are no longer creating your life, you are competing for it.

Another tenet is that there is enough for everyone. [ Read my bio for some other tenets and a link to download a free copy online. ]

Anyway, starting a business creates all this fear and anxiety - "will I succeed?" "What if so and so has a similar idea?" Blah blah blah. Stuff that stands in the way of succedding in anything. And Wattles says that in moments like that you've gotta focus on gratitude. HAVE GRATITUDE for all that YOU HAVE.

You can not rise out of something until you have outgrown it. And you have not outgrown it, you can not graduate. So BE ALL THAT YOU CAN BE NOW, and appreciate all that you have.

So I couldnt sleep because i was laying there thinking about integrity and life and my spiritual practice, and how when I miss a day, I feel at odds with myself. This is sort of new because I didn't used to feel so bad. But lately I do. And its cus I've made a commitment to myself, my life, and my business - this one and all the next ones - to be ALL THAT I CAN BE.

Now when I am NOT, I fall into fear and competitive panic that feeds frenzy. It is no longer for the benefit of ALL. It becomes about ME. And that's when the nets rips and all the LOVE that I have generated escapes... it dissipates because I have grown selfish!

Anyway, thats my midnite thought.  Have gratitude. And keep leaping. Lead for mankind.
Leap for your possibility. Be a stand for each other.

Check out the book. He will get you thinking. And its free - probably because the copyright laws have expired.

Love,
Katya